Sometimes i think im crazy, im crazy or so c r a z y . . . . .. ..

change

2007-03-30T08:46:00.000+08:00

link changed : http://160letters.blogspot.com

ATTACK!ATTACK!

WEE!

2007-01-04T16:53:00.000+08:00

not updating anymore. too lazy. :)

HAPPY!

2006-11-23T19:59:00.000+08:00

Im missing her!Lots!

&

IM SO HAPPY! damn it.

Weak

2006-11-22T19:28:00.000+08:00

I feel so weak right now without you.
Sense of boredom.
The attacks of loneliness.
The sounds of soundless romance.
The bite in my heart..
Why can't you appear right infront of me with a snap of my fingers?

Sry for being too emoish right nw. LOL! Ouch! My finger hurts, due to an instant game of basketball with no warmups. heh.

I'm weak. Just weak.

guys, to watch free movies which some has not been released in Singapore, heh, go to http://www.mydigitalshare.com/ . Just sign up, and they'll give u a link to watch them. Serious. No joke. They have saw 3 there, very clear. ;P

the hardest part of death is leaving u

2006-11-19T15:03:00.000+08:00

Turn Away,
If you could get me a drink of water
Cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt Marie
help her gather all my things
and bury me in all my favourite colors
my sisters and my brothers
still, I will not kiss you
Now Turn Away
cause I’m awful just to see
cause all my hairs abandoned all my body
I’m in agony
know that I will never marry
and baby I’m just Sogin from the chemo
and counting down the days to go
its just a Livin
and I just hope you know
that if you say
goodbye tonight
I'd ask you to be true
Cause the hardest part of death is leaving you
A woohaho
Cause the hardest part of death is leaving you ..

medicine shop with weird name

2006-11-18T12:15:00.001+08:00

Multimedia message,
originally uploaded by rafie_owen.

Theres a shop with a weird name called 'Kedai ubat TUCK OON THONG' which means Medicine Shop Not Profitable in English. LOL!

SWEET me and her!

2006-11-17T18:30:00.001+08:00

Multimedia message,
originally uploaded by rafie_owen.

hehe. Our second year go Hari raya together.

I'm BACK ASSHOLES!

2006-11-17T18:09:00.000+08:00

LOL! yea! I'm back for good for after 2 months of M.I.A with new skins[ nice right?:) ] , new style of blogging(cos can send my pics thru' my phone using mms-DUH!) , new way of leading life and getting ready for next year.

Oh well, i'm talking crap. yea i know. hehe.

Been busy with school currently, timetable sux, i'm far away from my baby, i miss you dear :(, couldn't wait for next year .. hehe. Hari raya has past for GOOD, becoz i DIDNT GET MUCH ANGPOW! One great reason, "oh, u are 18 already rite, big enough, no need angpow...*smiles at each other* " damn it. Am i big? So im broke now. Gonna do what tcher have taught me on saving daily allowances.

Hmm, couldnt talk much, becoz im gonna watch the latest episode of Prison Break Season 2 Episode 11, hehe, just making u jealous. So, CYA guys, and THANKS FOR THE TAGS u guys post.

MORE TO COME!
oh forgot to say this, the latest my chemical romance album rocks.

watch gerard from MCR singing CANCER, its so heartwarming

http://www.youtube.com/v/a_S1HFhb1EM

Multimedia message

2006-11-17T17:53:00.001+08:00

Multimedia message,
originally uploaded by rafie_owen.

Grrr..

2006-09-20T15:28:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the lag of update due to time constraints. Actually, i have lots of time, its just that i keep myself busy with stuffs.

played piano

played guitar

updated my tutorial site

giz-EE

created a skin for blogskins.com CHECKITOUT

created a skin for me-n-dear site

downloading new songs

bitching about other people with my friend (lol-its FUN!)

catching up old blockbuster movies ( TV )

Someone ask me this,

what is the real meaning of 'moving on'?

This makes me think. For me, moving on means ignoring/learn from the past and just move on.

Ok, what if u lose someone who is dear to u and u can't live without that person, how do u move on?

I have problems answering this man, lol, erm, ya for me, move on by learning, gaining experience from the past, use that as a stepping stone for your life. Learn from failure. Blame no one, improve on oneself's situation. That's my principle of life. Cheer up. =)

Too much to see Too much to do

2006-09-18T09:33:00.000+08:00

Too much to see, Too much to do.

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE'S BACK WITH THEIR NEW ALBUM , BLACK PARADE Listen to their new single, welcome to the black parade. Awesome!

I guess i'll just stay at home unless someone recommends me to his job. =)

I'm learning piano right now, since I found the piano which my parents bought for me 10 years ago in the cupboard, by the way, its original, not mama shop one. I found out that piano is far more easy than guitar. One press the sound comes out, whereas for the guitar, U need to press the fret (left hand) and at the same time, pluck the string (right hand). One out, U are gone. So piano, U are the best. I can play UNFAITHFUL ( front + chorus ), where'd you go( intro). See, I managed to learn it within two days. How nice. Hah.

Life's getting boring for now. I don't know why. Maybe becoz im far away from my dear. Maybe i wont get to see her till Hari Raya. Cant wait for that day, MONEY! YUUFOOOO~ Fasting day coming in 6 more days time, i think. ;(

I watched Pamela Anderson's documentary ( not porn please ) in the tv, and i realized something, she's gorgeous. I'm not refering to her surgically-enchanced boobs , but theres just an x-factor in her, pure beauty. hehe. crap.

i can't seem to find a decent picture of her when i yahoo-ed her name. If u are still wondering who is she, click here her pics. abv 18 preferred. =)

All right, back to my piano lessons thru' youtube. muhahahahhaha.

visit em'

2006-09-14T16:49:00.000+08:00

Nice sites for MUSICLOVERS.

http://muaturun.blogspot.com - malay songs.

http://mp3000.net - english songs.

GiVE EM LOVE!

I saw PAUL TWO HILL!

2006-09-13T18:15:00.000+08:00

I SAW PAUL TWOHILL! erm, i think i should say, paul two hill look alike. ;x

Oh my, this version of paul is the ugliest or lets say not-that-nice i've ever seen. lol. seriously. I was with my gerl in the train and she's the one who notice it n told me to look at my right. First moment, I SAW PAUL TWOHILL , thats what my heart thought at first, but my brain says OH MY GAWD!. haha.

Ok, i not being mean here, but this guy, ok , he's has the same clothing as paul two hill, the usual rock black tshirt, and black tight pants. Red big lips, white pale face, big eyes with mascara on it i think( his hair covering his other eye), his hair was covering his half of his neck n it was curly and it looks heavy on him. lol. Looks big and it curls around his neck. I should recommend him loreal hot and straight. haha. I don't know if others had notice him. That shocked me until i cant take my eyes off him. I kept turning right just to look at him and if i could, laugh at him! hahaha.. seriously. Trying to be paul two hill, but looks like paul two tits. oops. yuffooo! haha. Erm wait, or is he the real PAUL TWOHILL?

ok, singapore idol tonight. Who's gonna reach the final? Its gonna be hadi vs jon showdown. weee. Hadi's gonna win. he has my respect. =)

New Skin, Fresh things comin' up

2006-09-12T20:03:00.000+08:00

Fresh New Blog. New Skin. New things will surprise your way soon. =)

I created this skin based on the great song Superman by Five For FIghting. The best singles ever. Im inspired by it. And the superman which is sketched by a fantastic artist from deviantart.com. I lost the link to his site. I'll do my best to find the site n show u guys. Well, he sketched that picture of superman, i coloured it using brushes in Photoshop n created it into a layout. hehe. So if u guys wanna noe how i create a layout and make it into a website, keep going into my tutorial site cos i'll be creating a tutorial based on that soon.

So im tired for now. So let me have a rest. =0 thanks guys for the comments.

This is the original sketch.

EDITED : i found the link to the owner of the sketch - HERE! pyromaniac975 =)

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that nieve
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird
I'm more than a plane
I'm more than some pretty face
Beside a train
and it's not easy to be me

I wish that I could cry
fall upon my knees
find a way to lie
about a home I'll never see
It may sound absurd
but don't be nieve
even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
but wont you concede
even heroes have the right to dream
and its not easy to be me

Up up and away away from me
Well it's all right you can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy or anything

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that nieve
Men weren't meant to ride
with clouds between their knees

I'm only a man
in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
I'm only a man
in a phony red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me, Inside of me, Inside of me
Inside of me

I'm only a man
In a phony red sheet
I'm only a man looking
for a dream
I'm only a man
in a phony red sheet
And it's not easy
Ohhh ohhhh ohhhhhhh

It's not easy to be me

before N after marriage

2006-09-10T11:20:00.000+08:00

I found something interesting when I was browsing somewhere over the net so here i am, sharing this with u. Its kinda real n most of all, funny. =)

Before marriage. .
Darling here.. darling there…
After marriage.
Baling here… baling there..

Before marriage. .
I die for you. . .
After marriage.
“You die, up to you. “
Lagi lama married. .
You die I’ll help you!

Before marriage. .
You go anywhere. . I follow you.
After marriage. . .
You go anywhere. . up to you.

Before wedding
“you are my heart, you are my love”
After wedding
“you get on my nerves. “

Before wedding
“you are sweet and kind just like Cinderella”
After wedding
“you are worse than godzila”

Before wedding
Roses are red, violets are blue.
Like it or not, I’m stuck with you
After wedding
Roses are dead, I am blue.
You get on my head,
I will sue you!

Before wedding
Every makan he brings you to Shangri-La
After wedding
You want to go, he says you expensive-la

Before wedding
She looks like SHAKIRA
After wedding
Cant diff. her and gorilla…..

=)

You gotta watch this!

2006-09-08T17:16:00.000+08:00

It's from the movie white chicks, n I STILL CAN'T STOP LAUGHING WHEN IM WATCHING IT! hahhaha..enjoy.

Paul no more hill.

2006-09-08T10:01:00.000+08:00

PAUL'S OUT OF THE S'PORE IDOL!

oh my, im not being gay here or something, i'll be missing the most craziest and humurous guy in the competition. Without him, s'pore idol will be boring. ;( You guys notice something when he was voted out of the competition, Gurmit was teary-eyed. He could not even host the show properly. AND TO MAKE THINGS WORST, PAUL WENT ON TO SING MY FAVOURITE SONG CALLED SUPERMAN by FIVE FOR FIGHTING..oh my god, if im a girl, i'd cried on the spot. ;D Well, all the best to him.

Ok, exam coming in a few days time. Manage to pass my mock test which is last year paper and i think im over confident now that i'm not revising my work because i've been concentrating on my own TUTORIAL SITE. hehe. OK GUYS GIVE IT SOME LOVE!!!

wwwDOT-giz-eeDOTblogspotDOTcom

2006-09-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

OH MY! I HAD A CRUSH ON NURUL MAIDEEN! MUAHAHA.. n i'm feeling im torn right now. Just as what's shes singing. ;(

I'm back

2006-08-30T15:02:00.000+08:00

WEE~ It's been weeks since i've updated this. Well, alot of things has come past me. Bad, good..and now, its back to bad. haiz. Chill.

I'll be on HIATUS for a while , n will be back with NEW SKIN, i promise. ;)

not in the mood to blog. Thanks guys and gals for visiting. :)

Alas..

2006-08-22T07:52:00.000+08:00

At Last..everything has gone fine. Just fine. lol.

from expecting to not expected,
from fine to sick to fine,
from hope to blame to improve,
from right to wrong and right,
from love to lonely to love...

Life rules. haha. Ya guys, no point saying life sucks. If u are face with a situation, dun blame urself or others. Look at it, improve on how can u turn it into a better one. Dun be judgemental. Judge after u know the real situation. Chill man. ;) gd luck. just don't look back in anger.

Exam coming 3 more weeks, n im still slacking.

Note to everybody : Studying after school with Anggerek won't get you far. LOL! dun worry la, everyone's the same. haha

Dan, u asked me about the mp3 thingy on my blog right, go to my another site http://comeandlearn.blogspot.com/ my tutorial site. haha. it looks like shit right now.

Guys learn this, its farking hard man. haha creed-one last breath

2006-08-18T08:28:00.000+08:00

What's the difference between
contacting someone who has
handphone and
comunicating
with someone who does not have
handphone?
A : Same- Priceless. duh~ i guess Khai u got it right, handphone
won't help relationship work.Just
chill out. Right? :) thx. Im doing that right now.

Whattheheck siak yesterday, how the hell did Joaquim manage to stay in the
S'Idol competition, its clear cut that he's trying his best to get out of the
competition. Girls,
please stop voting for someone who does
not know how to sing in a
SINGING COMPETION PLEASE ~ This is my point of
view and everyone's entitled to their own views.

The world's getting wrong.

WOW!

2006-08-16T18:14:00.000+08:00

What a wonderful day i had today, lol, yeah, its my day. happy 15 months to us...wee~

What made me happy is that she cried ( in the sense of too happy ) when I gave her what she's really been saving from last time. A pre-paid card. Dun laugh. haha. yep, paham2 la. AND I CAN CONTACT HER EASILY ALREADY!! yay.... hhahahahaha.........the best day of my life. Oh, n wat did i get? hmm.. Something sweet and simple, ;) a home-made drink filled with a handful of longans in a water bottle, n it taste as sweet as dear. hehe. Sweet rite? Aww.. haha. 4 me la. Maybe not for u guys.

How wish if im beside her now and forever, even if it means by from far looking at her, supporting her all the way to succeed in her career, to tell and remind her to take care of herself, ignoring other bad things and simply just move on...how i wish..i just can't expect things to go my way right..well... all the best to my dear. I love u dilah.

hmmph..enough of that mushy stuff. hahahaha. some people complained that they can't banana dance to the tokyo drift song already, well, its time to move on. hahaha. Hope u guys like my updated playlist. If not, just tell me. ok. Tired. ZzzzzZzzZ

oh ya, SPIDERMAN 3 is comin' out next may, im definitely gonna catch it man. Go yahoo search for the pics.

n WORLD TRADE CENTER THE MOVIE
is comin' to theatres soon. Anggerek, free tix pls. haha. nah, just kidding.

yawn

2006-08-15T11:32:00.000+08:00

today never attend 10 am class, slack at home. lol.
edited:12.44pm-outside raining, never go school. haha. guys, dun try this at home.
its a

Total waste of TIME!!

damn, im bored. just updated the about me section and songs playlists.

tommorow's gonna be

A
VERY SPECIAL DAY

for only me and her

anggerek, Its 11.32 am in the morning. Class starting soon at 1 and she's still ~~sleeping~~.

vindicated

2006-08-14T17:33:00.000+08:00

"
vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
swear I knew it all along
and I am flawed
but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
the things you swore you saw yourself
"

Sometimes its just me being too paranoid, sometimes i care too much, i think too much, it's affecting the way im reacting. I just don't understand. So now, one easy thing for me to do, keep myself busy and pretend nothing happened. Just pretend k. ;)

Ok, anggerek bought baby's food flavoured apple. U know that soft, creamy custard in a small jug. Anggerek bought that and dared me to eat it. I was happy cos I myself love to eat that. SO we continue eating that stuff happily on the kiddy's ride outside toy r'us. lol. who's kidding who. ha.

sick.

2006-08-13T13:44:00.000+08:00

I'm sick now. Yesterday was worse. Got flu, headache, wet eyes-eye sore..im dying. hahaha.. just kidding guys. dun need to cry-yet. haha. Just normal flu disease.

Yesterday, me and my friend ( 6 of us ) went to paint my friend's auntie's house. I accepted the one-day job cos he told me we will get paid about $30. End up, its only $20. Got sick immediately after finish painting n today went to doctor which cost $20. damn. I wont be painting people's house anymore. haha. but i got an mc. weee~ ~~the best thing in town.~~ lol

i read somewhere in the net. It wrote couples fight because they misses each other. Fighting over small things is a must. lol. So i guess, its natural la. crap.

OK! LIVERPOOL VS CHELSEA TODAY 9.50pm. watch em' guys. hehe. lpools gonna win!

lol.wats happening?

2006-08-11T18:12:00.000+08:00

DAMN!
i dun noe wats happening to me..??

just went to see my dear. n all of sudden, i blamed her for everything. i dun noe wat im doing right now. yes. im feeling damn bored with the relationship, couldnt talk long on the phone, couldnt meet long, when meet nothing to talk, when never call and never meet, alot of things to talk. wat the heck. i dun understand love. am i being too obsessed and paranoid? theres always miscommunication here and there. and my mind only points to one thing..handphone. izit becoz she dun have phone, and shes far away from me?

Q:Guys tell me, is handphone a solve to miscommunication? tell me. pls.

why am i doing all this? please god forgive, for wat i did. give me patience and hope to carry on with life.

im sick today. flu. sneeze alot. maybe its ~~AIDS~~. lol. learnt some nice money saving tips during P.I.E in sch today. N im starting to save money now. im getting a new phone, if enough for me. If its really a last resort for my relationship, den i'll buy it for her.

last two days was arite. first day, national eve went to marina bay to watch fireworks. Next day went to east coast park. All with family. Just wish it was with my sayang. haiz. Things getting bored each day. If im free, i'll post the pics. No promise. ;)

Anggerek, thx for the complementary pass. wee..can watch tokyo drift liao. hahhaha.. thx lots.

dear, im sorry.

happy?? national day. bored la ! !

2006-08-08T12:12:00.000+08:00

Y A Y ! !

~~Self-made school holiday for me today~~. lol. Supposed to go school but then none of my friends are going. Well, its sch half day national day eve special, as what teacher told us, theres flag raising at stadium and concert at fountain. Its kinda lame. LOL!

Abdullah, thx for the advertisemnt thru' sms. hee..intend to watch fireworks tonite with the whole family, but hw i wish i get to spend the nite with my dear ~ haiz. next time je la k honey.

Woke up in the morning juz to update this blog and im updating the profile page. It'll be up soon. Nice sweet yet simple. ;) ok. thats all folks.

throw sad away, take happiness.

2006-08-07T14:14:00.000+08:00

U guys can ignore the previous entry. CASE CLOSED.

I noe why she did that. She claims i and the other her in my sch is getting closer and she's jealous over it. I was wat the.. ok guys. The other her is my classmate and my guitar cca mate and no more! AND THE OTHER HER HAS A BOYFRIEND AND HER BOYFRIEND IS MY CRAZY FRIEND. I won't tell who is she thru' this blog. ~~ask me if u wanna know .~~ lol. wat the heck siak. hahaha. She's been complaining why am i always messaging her and stuff. lol. ok, when comes to think, who doesnt get jealous rite if i were in my gerl's place and rafie is toking to another gal. ok, tats love. problem solved! ha. no more girl friends for me. girls, get out of my way. lol. just get on life dude!

Today my journey from sch to home was boring. Took me 2 hours to reach home. Wanna noe why? I went to buy 'putu piring' @ geylang for my gerl cos she really wan it from last month and i finally got it for her. AWW* ~~wat a sweet guy~~. haha. THX! haha. Took 24 to geylang, got the p.p, from there, take 51, and i thought it would go to hougang, but no, its heading jurong east. lol. so with my intelligence thinking, drop at bugis junction and took 80 from there. There u go. 2hr trip. just becoz of $2 p.p. And the whole trip was damn boring becoz the whole bus, 95% was filled with old aunties uncles ah moi ah pek. ~~Cannot wash eyes,~~ slept throughout the journey.

Shit, my hand smell of ~~semen~~. lol. its actually the chemical liquid that i use for my project just now in sch. lol. ok. gotta go. thx for the tag.

yea, it still smells if u wanna noe. hahahahaha.

the meaning of love

2006-08-05T16:16:00.000+08:00

press that to read my great classmate's love theory. ~~trust him if you want.~~ ;p hahaha.

Wat the..

2006-08-05T15:25:00.000+08:00

Ok, how's this? After a year of trust and love given, everything just change instantly. Just becoz of one stupid rich guy. The person i love most just fought with me over a rich guy's TREAT. ok, u only want tt guy to treat u SEOUL GARDEN. n u even hide ur real status to do that. U told him everyone was ur boyfriend, even the ~~apek at the hospital~~. CRAP!~ wat hurt me the most is when u ask me change the situation by telling that rich guy he can also be a boyfriend to u. JUST BECOZ HE HAS MONEY? HUH? ! i noe, u'll say u wan to have fun to be with a rich man, but den, u also told me, u are not chasing that guy's money. So what are u trying to conclude?

Sometimes i ask myself, have i not given u enough love? Trust? Care? Money???? Hungry for money? or wat. Wat more do u wan. U've changed since u went for attatchment...dissapointed, heartbroken. Well, i noe u won't get a chance to read my blog. And even if u get to, i hope you'll noe how i feel. Sometimes i feel ALL GIRLS ARE THE SAME. No money no honey. wateva. fuck it. pls. someone. can someone give me a ~~simpleminded-kampungirl~~ to me.

WANNA THX to u guys and gals who visited my blog. lol. anggerek, thx for the advertisement and the advice u gave me yestrday. hehe. daniel, i can't see ur blog. Its all in black. Can't read a thing. lol. ok. ~~gonna make money to have my honey here by me~~. wadeva.

Opening Ceremony

2006-08-03T07:55:00.000+08:00

Tadaa..

HiLOW! ;) My first blog of the year. Well, decide to create a blog due to boredness as well as being inspired by my dear friends khai, anggerek and abdullah. hehe. THX guys for letting me recreate this blog o' mine. Its been years since i've dump this blog and here i am again. wee~ It's still nt yet completed but dun worry, the posting of my life's confessions and shits will still go on.

First of all, would like to thank KHAIRI for inspiring me to work harder in my h.nitec course. yea. you? haha. Well, wanna noe why, ok, i asked around my family and friends, whether should i quit and pursue my favourite course in poly during oct intake or just continue with my lifeless monotonous electronic course. He told me to continue and after h.nitec, pursue my preferred course..the reason..simple, hnitecelectronic + diplomadesigning = nice work. And I was like " oh ya, tak terpikir seh" ;) Thanks alot. ;) That really motivates me to work harder. hehe. mcm gay gitu ekh. hahahah.. ok, thanks to my sayang aso for motivating me to study hard. ;) love u. Thanks to u guys also who motivate me in all the bad and the good stuff. hehe. . ;)

ar..will have long day today, guitar from 10am to 7pm. -.- I'll post more soon. tata.

jgn lupe T A G ! !
hehe. rafie out.